I got to see Jackson today. Sharon brought him in to see me at the bank. She picked him up for their mandatory overnight weekend visit. He was awake this time! The last time I got to hang with him was in early October, when we went to give him his birthday present. We got him a funky fun water sprinkler. It has different colored hoses that are rubber and when you turn it on it spins and the hoses flip all over the place. Jackson loved it. He likes to stand over the sprinkler and let the water soak him. He is fearless, just like you. Then it was close to your death anniversary and it got harder and harder to visit with him in that environment with "those people". Then "those people" stopped returning calls and emails and it just got worse as time went on. Sharon stopped by the bank one random Saturday and just as she pulled in he fell asleep. LOL I got to peek at him. That was back in early January, I haven't seen him since then until today. He was wide awake and ready for action.
At first he stuck his lip out like the tears were building up, but I didn't force myself on him. We came in the bank and I gave him a couple of stress balls he laughed and was so excited. He stood there facing off with me waiting to see who was gonna make a move first. Then all of a sudden you could see it click on his face like a light came on and he smiled real wide, waved his hand at me and said "HI"!
Marva it was so cute to see him laugh and play and warm up to me like we are old friends.
He stayed and played a bit while Sharon told me about your headstone. She had them put NEVER AFRAID on the back because you were never afraid. I miss you so much I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT. I hate that you are gone. I know it is so selfish but I just want you back. You are probably up there with JC singing Glory, but I want you here with me letting me cry on your shoulder telling me everything is going to be alright.
I hugged Jackson when I felt that Sharon was ready to leave and he hugged back and smiled. Sharon said "You gonna give her a kiss goodbye Jackson?" and he leaned in and kissed me! It was so precious, I asked him to give me a hug and he leaned in and really hugged me! It made me sad for a minute because I thought this should be me, I should be his mother now, raising him the way I know you wanted him raised. Nathan and I would have been amazing parents for him. I know you already know that. Too bad the greedy blind selfishness of "those people" got in the way of what you wanted. Bastards.

Marva Rhea

Marva Rhea was the most amazing person I have ever had the pleasure of befriending. She was beautiful, full of life, spontaneity, honesty, genuineness, I could go on forever. What you need to know about Marva is how simply FANTASTIC she was in every way.